Ughhhhh.... hit a wall and didn't do a thing except eat some almond butter chocolate chunk cookies and feel guilty for three days. Why do I keep sabotaging myself? I think a lot of it stems from not feeling in balance yet. I struggle with finding time to keep my house in order and take care of my son, find time to exercise, and make time to study the scriptures too. When I get two of the three done I always feel guilt for not accomplishing the third. Thats what happened..... that is what threw me off for three days. Last night I had a major ugly cry feast with my husband and we made goals to try and help get in better balance. It was too much, feeling like I was holding the weight of the world. I had to ask for help which, if you know me, is asking a lot.

I found some inspiration to get it back together. In the august 2011 Ensign. The Article is called The Traditions of a Balanced, Righteous Life. by Elder L. Tom Perry. The section that gave my my light bulb of inspiration was called Our body is a Temple. "Good physical and spiritual health can help us to stay on the straight and narrow way...we need to nourish ourselves spiritually, even more than physically." Now don't take this wrong, this is not suggesting that scripture study should replace physical exercise. This quote answered my guilt issues with my balancing act. I need to put my scripture study first, then exercise, then worry about everything else. If I put the Lord first I know hat everything else will fall into place.

This Epic Battle isn't easy and is going to require a lot of diligence, but I'm getting back up, dusting myself off, and starting again, and, again, and again, and again... you get the point. Don't give up and stop, just keep moving forward.